Soooo...it's been a while. A LONG while.
Yesterday and the day before, I had to come to grips with a big decision: dropping a class.
I'm currently teetering between failing and passing the class and one top of that, I might not need this class for my major after all.
I had to fight against myself, saying that it HAD to be done. It would help me more than hurt me and I would feel better after it was dropped. On top of that, my GPA would increase a lot and I could even get into Dean's List again!...not that I really care, it's just a bonus.
But as I was thinking about it yesterday, my mind wandered to another topic: Deviant art.
I thought about the hiatus I've had for a while on my two series, Time of Darkness and Tears of a Star Warrior. Then I thought about Tears of a Star Warrior.
This series has gone through change after change and after millions of changes. To the point that I've hit a large rock: Tumblr.
I'm not a very organized person, but I want to be consistent. Over the years I've worked on both sites, I've developed a new plot on Tumblr that ToaSW completely disregards: How does Kirby meet his teammates?
In ToaSW, he goes on a journey to find himself and meets the others along the way. On Tumblr, he travels to another island with Meta Knight and a few other star warriors to fight some leftover monsters. He meets Serenity and then she goes looking for HIM. Saito and Aege travel to Dreamland for various reasons and meet Kirby; Nami is lost in a whirlpool and ends up at Dreamland.
This is COMPLETELY different from ToaSW and in all honesty, I've grown more attached to this idea instead. I tried modeling ToaSW after this, but no matter what I do, it just becomes cluttered.
Also in ToaSW, Tiff, Tuff, Dedede, and Meta Knight go on a trip with Saito to find Kirby and bring him home. Their journey is basically there for exposition. And it just gets messy from there.
I've tried and tried to change and rearrange this series, but I've just found it difficult. Time of Darkness is easier to handle because I have more ideas for it. It's also supposed to be a simple road trip story, but with a few twists.
Tears of a Star Warrior demands I tread carefully since it's a full-on fan fiction talking about Kirby's past. If I don't put enough thought into it, people will lose interest.
I've had more ideas about Serenity's past than Kirby's past.
For Kirby, all I've had is that Meta Knight knew Kirby and his parents. The reason he knew so much about him and his powers in the anime is because he was friends with his parents and watched him grow; he even helped train Kirby a few times. Kirby was captured by NME's monsters and taken to Nightmare Enterprises. He grew so angry at NME, he almost became a monster. There was also a plot element where Kirby intentionally broke the star rod, forcing him into a long, deep sleep. He would have slept for eternity, but he made a deal with Twinkle Popopo--his ancestor and the predecessor to the star rod-- and he saved him by wiping his memory. Kirby would also have another form: Dreamcatcher Kirby (I'm still keeping this, it's actually pretty neat). Dreamcatchers are a race of puffballs chosen by specific "stellar" elements. There is a sun, moon, and constellation Dreamcatcher in addition to Kirby (I intend to use this in the future). But THAT'S ALL I HAVE. I don't have a name for the parents, how they died, how Kirby ended up in the star ship or Dreamland, and all those previous plot points aren't easy to organize.
I took the time to look at this. I looked at ToD and ToaSW and realized what was more desired: Time of Darkness. As I was struggling with accepting the fact that dropping would be necessary, something else crossed my mind: There can only be one.
I've been trying to find out ToaSW for almost 2 years straight. Every path I take ends up in this series becoming a "pure fan fic."
A pure fan fic is something I don't really enjoy. These are fan created series that only exist for the fan that created it. It only makes sense to them and is super sloppy. Or it can also have elements that really came out of nowhere or never needed to exist.
Remember how Time of Darkness was supposed to be for Serenity and Kirby to develop a really close bond? I created it at first with the mind and personality of a fan who wanted to see Kirby fall in love. Serenity's ONLY purpose at the time was to be the love interest. It's sad to say that's how I saw her so many years ago.
Now, she's a good friend with a deep backstory that I'm actually kind of proud of. It's not finished, but when it is, I'm sure people will begin to like Serenity more and see her more than just a Kirby OC with hair.
Time of Darkness has also begun to evolve, adding more plot elements and character development. I see a lot in it's future.
I've grown to enjoy the concept of the Tumblr story for Kirby and his friends. It shows how Dreamland changes after NME's defeat and covers more of Popstar. What lies beyond Dreamland? I see another kingdom, ruled by a powerful puffball family. The ruler is a young queen and she has a few younger sisters and brothers. The second oldest sister grew up with Aege and knew him since they were infants.
I hope to incorporate this more on Tumblr in the future.
But what about Tears of a Star Warrior?...You know where I'm going with this right?
Yep...I've decided. I know I promised I would continue both series to the end, but I started to realize that this series is sort of stuck in its own limbo. If it went any further, it wouldn't work out. I do intend to use some of the elements I originally planned, like the Dreamcatchers, Kirby's ancestor being Twinkle Popopo, and NME kidnapping Kirby and a large group of young puffballs to turn into his slaves in future works. I see ToaSW better when its fragmented. As a whole, it's messy and complicated; however, as various pieces, they are really strong. Of course, there are stories behind these elements, so it would make up a complete flashback, but it just can't be together. ToaSW focuses more on Kirby's backstory and hardly anything else. And so if I striped away the filler, there would only be the exposition. In the end, it's just not worth going through it anymore.
On top of that, I really want to continue ToD. But my mind has been split with this series as well.
By halting ToaSW, I can finally implement the Tumblr plot and continue ToD in the future.
I hated doing this, but I realized that this isn't "giving up," like I always fear. I'm dropping a class because there are four other classes that need more attention. By dropping the class, I can devote more time to my other classes, not have as much stress, and be able to do more every day.
See the connections?
Sometimes, we need to let go of things. You need to know the difference between giving up and releasing extra weight. The difference between the two is the cause. I realized a lot of animators haven't been "giving up" but doing exactly what I am doing now. Animators like Destruction Series tried EVERYTHING to make his project, but realized that there were too many complications to continue and had to stop it. Giving up would be done without trying or attempting to complete something.
Once you know you've reached your limit, then you can decide where to go next.
Tears of a Star Warrior has been like this for 3 years. Maybe I'll reuse the name of the series in the future, but I'm going to stop this. I'll keep making plot elements that would have been in this series, but I can't keep pushing this further.
I thought I could pass this class, that I would be able to get everything perfect, but at this point, it seems impossible.
I'm sorry I have to do this, but at least you guys know that Time of Darkness will now receive more attention and that I'll still be using some of ToaSW for future works.
If there's any questions, please feel free to ask!
Thanks guys! Talk to y'all later!
Listening to: Sans-Loid
Reading: Various English Books
Watching: Kingdom Hearts CoM NicoB
Playing: Mario and Luigi Paper Jam
Eating: Anything the Cafe Serves